Trying to make sense of the senseless is an exercise in futility.
Sadly, that usually doesn't stop me :) I think I will be curious about everything all the time until they put me in the ground.
On that note; I am considering the body farm option but I think it would mess with my family's heads too much. They are giving me flat out NOs; but you know it's free! Why waste a penny on the way out; more for them I tell them.